Something about going through tragic loss has made me so FIERCE. Looking back on my life I used to be far too lenient. Far too accepting of disrespectful behaviour towards myself. Giving way too many chances. To the detriment of my own well-being.
Ignoring blatant disrespect towards myself and my family to keep the peace. Ignoring bad vibes just because I truly deeply love people; ALL people!
But That shit don’t fly no more.
I used to literally believe I could just live in my own positivity bubble (and I still can for the most part but not without some STRONG FIERCE BOUNDARIES with toxic energy!)
But it’s less about ignoring others bad energy towards me now and more about cultivating a strong energy field and removal of anything that doesn’t feel right!
Like, I have gone through so much in my lifetime and transmuted myself outta so many dark states; and it’s been on overdrive since the love of my life left this realm, it’s a BLESSING to have any connection with me, whether fb friends or otherwise. The amount of WORK I’ve had to put into my own healing to be this way that I am; authentically sharing from my heart with an intent to SERVE others, If you don’t vibe / connect/ appreciate my SOUL and energy, please leave my space.
There are no hard feelings, but I just don’t have the energy for any form of malice towards me,
My love in spirit has helped me grow my self esteem to a new level since he’s passed, showing me all my good qualities; all the goodness I’ve put into this world; all the pain I have bravely faced within myself, my energy is truly not for everyone and I will finally accept that now!
This process of activating my fierceness and stronger boundary was slowly slowly slowly taking place while he was alive, as I had that safe protection from the masculine here physically, but with him dying it was forced to activate like a burning fire , as now I am the protector for me and our son, and with GOD of course!
Just a formal declaration that I will not take no shit
I’m not available for anyone in my space who doesn’t see the value in my authenticity and soul
It’s taken an amount of strength I didn’t know existed to regain my inner peace since the loss and nothing and no one is gonna get in the way of that!
Our peace, safety, solace is everything to me now.
May this be an activation for you as well, that there is nothing more important than your own healing.
Don’t keep people around that constantly disrespect you, and that you know don’t value you, or they downright abuse you!
You are a valuable; worthwhile , beautiful soul and it’s taken all of your energy to heal from things you don’t even share with people- no bad energy is allowed near you.
You are worthy of the highest level of support, care, genuine concern, and kindness from others in your life, now and always. Every single human is.